Category Archives: out of stock

Dead

A little bit into the afternoon, 20 years ago today, my father died. I hated him a lot. I still do. I can never forgive him, let alone forget what he did to me. But the worst part is that … Continue reading

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The Irresistible Force met the Unmovable Object

he is too distant. i am too pushy. or too insistent. or i just try too hard. i really liked him. i still do. but is a post too far and i can’t reach it. he just won’t call, or … Continue reading

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You knocked me off my feet

I am falling. He doesn’t know. He doesn’t care. He’s just not into me. We had sex and it blew my mind. I have no idea how it was for him. We slept together. Like, we took a nap in … Continue reading

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to clear the air

on the subject of my relationships, or lack of: I never had a relationship with a man ever upto today march 9, 2016. there were three attempts and a failure to lauch that just failed today. so I actually have … Continue reading

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horny

i am freaked out. for the past week or so i have been so horny. even at work i could barely bear it. i do not undersrand what is going on. i suspect i may be coming down with something. … Continue reading

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rejection: what to do about it

nothing. suck it! move on! don’t look back.

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rejection: how it’s done

i have been rejected. almost all the time. from my father who wished i was different, to my mother who wanted a girl, to the last guy that i spoke with. for me the experience was different every time. in … Continue reading

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cheap porn

he got what he wanted. i got what i did not ask for. nothing. he has a big one. 8 in, slightly crooked to the right. i fucked him. he was ok with it. my 6 in went in and … Continue reading

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tom selleck

man, this guy is just hot! i am watching FRIENDS and i can not take my eyes off of him. incidentally, he reminds me of someone i used to find very hot up until recently. and may even still do. the … Continue reading

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the gay at hand

well, after all the mixes and matches were made, in heaven, for the accommodation at the kiwi xmas party, two of us were left unpartnered: one of the girls at the reception and me. and since there were no more rooms, i … Continue reading

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