Category Archives: what i want

The Irresistible Force met the Unmovable Object

he is too distant. i am too pushy. or too insistent. or i just try too hard. i really liked him. i still do. but is a post too far and i can’t reach it. he just won’t call, or … Continue reading

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i heart u

the t-shirt. did not see at first. i was way too much into his eyes and smile. our bodies touched for a brief moment and i felt his bulge, actually his erection right on my butt chic. oh, hello! he … Continue reading

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I feel alright

It is a bit strange. I feel good, I feel I can manage myself. I feel I can manage the good things, get to enjoy them more. I feel I can manage the bad things, the aftermath, the lessons to … Continue reading

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Reset

I am thinking of reset. A reset of me. I’ve been functioning like this for far too long. Almost 41 years. I want to make a change. Big time! Overwhelming! Earth-shattering! Sometime ago I started to wonder if the therapy … Continue reading

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after 7 month and 7 days

i had sex with a man. i drove 10 km from my home to his on a week night. i wanted to experiment. i put myself out and i wanted to observe myself. of course i will analyse my feeling … Continue reading

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i am thinking of you…

and you, and you, and you… every time i listen to vampire weekend and especially hortchata, i think of you. your long dark hair. i am sorry i could not take the initiative. i wish i could chase you (or … Continue reading

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why i fell out of love for you

right then, after i finished reading all the posts from your blog, the magic was broken forever. i knew right then and there that something is wrong. it took me several month to figure out your games. it was all … Continue reading

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The man of my dreams

I think i am allowed to dream from time to time. I just got off of a one hour long phone conversation with a friend. We were talking about stuff and at one point i told her about my ideal … Continue reading

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