Aftermath

we reconnected on gayromeo. i was about to close my account when he asked me if i am still single. then he disclosed who he was and i remembered. i said i wanted to meet him. and then i f**ked things up. and after that he said he is better off alone and miserable than with me. at the time it did not hurt. i was starting to fall for him and now every time i see a guy in the street of the same height as him and with black hair i tremble and i think of him. i hate that i still think of him and i hate that i don’t even know if i ever had a shot at him. we broke up in such strange circumstances that it is impossible for me to know if he was into me or not or he was just pissed off at my instability. and i promised that i will never contact him again. ever.