Tag Archives: love

On Empathy

Posted on December 16, 2019 by xavier_j

I used to struggle with it. I was unaware of others and I still am most of the time. What I discovered recently is that when I pay attention I have, it seems, the ability to understand and see the … Continue reading →

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You knocked me off my feet

Posted on May 16, 2018 by xavier_j

I am falling. He doesn’t know. He doesn’t care. He’s just not into me. We had sex and it blew my mind. I have no idea how it was for him. We slept together. Like, we took a nap in … Continue reading →

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to clear the air

Posted on March 9, 2016 by xavier_j

on the subject of my relationships, or lack of: I never had a relationship with a man ever upto today march 9, 2016. there were three attempts and a failure to lauch that just failed today. so I actually have … Continue reading →

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Forget you

Posted on February 21, 2015 by xavier_j

… i want, as if you were never born, as if we wouldn’t have met. i am numb, i am sad almost all the time and i miss you. i miss the possibility of us together. i miss your wits, … Continue reading →

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Aftermath

Posted on January 17, 2015 by xavier_j

we reconnected on gayromeo. i was about to close my account when he asked me if i am still single. then he disclosed who he was and i remembered. i said i wanted to meet him. and then i f**ked … Continue reading →

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I feel alright

Posted on February 22, 2014 by xavier_j

It is a bit strange. I feel good, I feel I can manage myself. I feel I can manage the good things, get to enjoy them more. I feel I can manage the bad things, the aftermath, the lessons to … Continue reading →

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accept joy and let go of fear

Posted on January 14, 2014 by xavier_j

I got this quote from the golden globes telecast. I think it was Amy Adams or Jennifer Lawrence. I don’t remember exactly. however I think this should be my state of mind from now on. you know, we often forbid … Continue reading →

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About a relationship

Posted on June 5, 2013 by xavier_j

… or something like that, that I experimented about two month ago. by some weird coincidence i got to meet this 23 yo. we drunk beer, he a bit more than me and we kissed and we fucked. actually he … Continue reading →

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conditional

Posted on September 27, 2012 by xavier_j

love is something very relative to me. Apparently my subconscious desires it. I think that being loved is a validation of oneself. So, the thinking is: do I need to be validated? I need to understand if validations of oneself … Continue reading →

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i am in love…

Posted on September 2, 2012 by xavier_j

… with me. i love my smile. i love my resolve. i love my wit. i love my space. i love my biceps and my triceps and my pectorals. i love my 6pack even if i can not see them. … Continue reading →

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