Tag Archives: down and out

I should keep my mouth shut

Posted on June 8, 2018 by xavier_j

The Unmovable Object just moved far far away. And now all I need to do is resist the urge to contact him. That is how he works. But that is how it is not working for me. I need him … Continue reading →

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You knocked me off my feet

Posted on May 16, 2018 by xavier_j

I am falling. He doesn’t know. He doesn’t care. He’s just not into me. We had sex and it blew my mind. I have no idea how it was for him. We slept together. Like, we took a nap in … Continue reading →

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Forget you

Posted on February 21, 2015 by xavier_j

… i want, as if you were never born, as if we wouldn’t have met. i am numb, i am sad almost all the time and i miss you. i miss the possibility of us together. i miss your wits, … Continue reading →

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Aftermath

Posted on January 17, 2015 by xavier_j

we reconnected on gayromeo. i was about to close my account when he asked me if i am still single. then he disclosed who he was and i remembered. i said i wanted to meet him. and then i f**ked … Continue reading →

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my strategy: pre-reject everyone

Posted on November 23, 2012 by xavier_j

… including me. that prevents all rejection. and the eventual looser that would like my ugly face and fat body. cause, in the the words of the great margaret chow, ‘if you like me then you are a bigger looser … Continue reading →

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the worst time to fall in love

Posted on September 1, 2009 by xavier_j

Valentine’s Day 2010: maybe too critical, lapse emotionally and too weak to perform, e.i. the worst time to fall in love. I will be staying home by myself.

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My Left Leg

Posted on August 16, 2009 by xavier_j

PS – btw, this is my 100th post.

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the disadvantage of being alone

Posted on July 30, 2009 by xavier_j

i just realized a major disadvantage of being alone. i ate and as result, unbeknownst to me, i left some tomato sauce and something else around my month. i carried that throughout my entire walk downtown. no one said a … Continue reading →

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patience

Posted on June 15, 2009 by xavier_j

i think his patience is running thin and i am afraid to lose him. i managed to disappoint him a great deal with all the stupid things i said lately. he is someone that remained with me throughout my depression … Continue reading →

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if i, will i

Posted on April 27, 2009 by xavier_j

if i wake up now will i have enough time to live if i stand up now will i have the strength to make it if i speak now will anybody listen to my words if i kill myself now … Continue reading →

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