if i, will i

if i wake up now will i have enough time to live
if i stand up now will i have the strength to make it
if i speak now will anybody listen to my words
if i kill myself now will anybody notice that i’m gone
if i vanish now will dust cover my tracks
if i scream now will the man in the moon hear me
if i spread my wings will i look majestic
if i look into the future now will it change because of that
if i swallow my pride will that save me from starvation