Author Archives: xavier_j

The man of my dreams

I think i am allowed to dream from time to time. I just got off of a one hour long phone conversation with a friend. We were talking about stuff and at one point i told her about my ideal … Continue reading

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tell him…

i was recently told that i do not express my feelings. i gave some thought to this. i think i don’t. indeed, i never had the courage of my opinions and i never actually was comfortable with my own feelings to lay … Continue reading

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three things to make it right

someone told me this week that a couple consists of three things: you, him and the relationship. the two of you exist as individuals but the third thing is what makes the difference. it is the bond, it is the … Continue reading

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i don’t love him

a good friend of mine, you know who you are, made me question my love for him. well, she says that you can not tell that you love somebody and can not live without him, if have not sent enough … Continue reading

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the writing’s on the wall

damage has been done. trust was broken. feeling were hurt. there is nothing to be said or done. i am not a mind doctor, i do not read peoples’ minds and i can not predict the future. i know what … Continue reading

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friday night, saturday night

i went out this week end. i needed a break after all the pain and sadness. it felt good. i danced, a laughed, i joked, i had fun. and i found that i have friends and that i am not alone … Continue reading

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my boyfriend name is…

… not yet decided. a fried of my office colleague visited today and as i was introduced, she noted out-loud that her husband name is Traian. right then and there i though how ironic would be to have a bf named Traian. ironic indeed: “here is … Continue reading

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the gay at hand

well, after all the mixes and matches were made, in heaven, for the accommodation at the kiwi xmas party, two of us were left unpartnered: one of the girls at the reception and me. and since there were no more rooms, i … Continue reading

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what i want

i want a man that would fight for me. a man that is stubborn enough to make me change my mind. a man that would stick around. a man that would love me as i am. a man that would … Continue reading

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change

‘i want to make a change, for once in my life. it’s gonna feel real good, gonna make a difference, gonna make it right.” [from man in the mirror] i know i need to make a change. a very difficult … Continue reading

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