Author Archives: xavier_j

comment to a link on FB to “personal spectator”

Posted on July 16, 2009 by xavier_j

here it goes:“sometimes it takes a proposal like that to give you a jolt to change. something that shackes everything inside of you and makes you see yourself as you are. i should add that she will be more confident … Continue reading →

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good things happen to those who wait?!

Posted on July 5, 2009 by xavier_j

it happened after nearly 6 month. i had sex. for many people and the majority of gay men this may not be that unusual. oh, or it is. 6 month? ‘wtf is wrong with you, man?’ would be the standard … Continue reading →

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patience

Posted on June 15, 2009 by xavier_j

i think his patience is running thin and i am afraid to lose him. i managed to disappoint him a great deal with all the stupid things i said lately. he is someone that remained with me throughout my depression … Continue reading →

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strange sensations

Posted on June 5, 2009 by xavier_j

i had a very strange experience last night. it was supposed to be a toy play. i brought my entire collection. but we ended up in a long 69 and then something strange happened. we just held each other and … Continue reading →

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Gay Fest Parade 2009

Posted on May 24, 2009 by xavier_j

it was the first time for me. a friend suggested i leave the car parked at the arrival point. and so i did. then i went back to Piata Unirii and had a chance to see the police presence on … Continue reading →

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i love you

Posted on May 8, 2009 by xavier_j

ce-ar fi daca i-as spune ‘te iubesc’. bine, de fapt nu chiar asa. ci mai dergraba ceva de genul ‘sti, cred ca m-am indragostit de tine’. doar ca il cunosc de vreo cateva luni si l-am vazut prima data pe … Continue reading →

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my gods

Posted on May 8, 2009 by xavier_j

i would like to have one god to care about me. to teach me how to behave, to teach me what to say, to spend time with me because i am alone. perhaps this would be the god of lonelyness.i … Continue reading →

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oare m-am indragostit?

Posted on May 6, 2009 by xavier_j

azi, dupa ceva ezitare si un schimb de mesaje idiote prin FB, l-am sunat si i-am zis ca vreau sa ies cu el. poate chair la film si a zis da. dar tot imi e teama pentru ca nu am … Continue reading →

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Posted on May 5, 2009 by xavier_j

ma gandeam ca poate nu a fost o idee prea buna sa ne vedem irl. am fost foarte curios si acum imi pare rau. asta pentru ca imi place de tine si nu stiu exact de ce. si asta contravine … Continue reading →

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to the one who almost fell asleep on my shoulder

Posted on May 2, 2009 by xavier_j

i asked you out. i don’t ususally do that. it is not because i am arogant or anything like that. it is that i do not have the guts to take rejection. so i do nothing. then you accepted. i … Continue reading →

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