Author Archives: xavier_j

my strategy: pre-reject everyone

… including me. that prevents all rejection. and the eventual looser that would like my ugly face and fat body. cause, in the the words of the great margaret chow, ‘if you like me then you are a bigger looser … Continue reading

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conditional

love is something very relative to me. Apparently my subconscious desires it. I think that being loved is a validation of oneself. So, the thinking is: do I need to be validated? I need to understand if validations of oneself … Continue reading

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fail. you are good enough.

today a grandmother scolded her 7yo in front of people getting on the bus. he stumbled in a dump in the pavement and almost dragged his grandma with him. ‘you stupid. do you see how stupid you are! … ‘ … Continue reading

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i am in love…

… with me. i love my smile. i love my resolve. i love my wit. i love my space. i love my biceps and my triceps and my pectorals. i love my 6pack even if i can not see them. … Continue reading

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A friend in need…

People misinterpret this thinking that the measure if a friendship is made from the things people do to each other in kind. Truth is that friends do things for friends when they need them most but are not able to … Continue reading

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Sudden impact

Nothing prepares you for it. my mother took it the hardest. She lost that day a shepard, a leader, a captain and rather than a friend, a lover and a husband. Is been almost 13 years since my father died. … Continue reading

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Day 22 – What I would find in your bag

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Day 21 – Something you crave for a lot

I have cravings now and then. I crave for certain foods, for sweets, maybe even for sex with someone other than myself. At this time I have everything I need and I am satisfied. However, something I have been craving a lot, for … Continue reading

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Day 20 – The meaning behind your blog name

Me as Gay Folk simply it is me viewed from the angle of my sexual orientation. I need to stress that it is a window into my life and it is not my entire life or the entire me.

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Day 19 – What makes you different from everyone else

I am tall. I have a (grey) beard. I have grey hair. I can be funny. I care. I have a tattoo. I an very alone and I have no friends.

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