a date with a libra

i had a date today. with a libra. it has mismatch written all over it. and i don’t like this idea. he is cute, very intelligent, good-looking and 10 years younger.

i, on the other hand, am not so good looking, not that intelligent, into totally different things and 10 years older.

i asked him for a second date and i am so afraid he will say no. i hope at least he will have the guts to tell me to my face. i can take it.

i like him.

[later edit] the second date is not going to take place. i decided i am not ready for anything. no more dates for me.

[another edit] i wish i knew when am i’ll to be ready? at 50? at 60? damn it!

[the final update] i tried to mend it but the damage was understandably too big. however, a teachable moment for me.

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my take on size…

… dick size, to be exact.

well, i like big dicks. i am a size queen in my own right. i like to just lay there, on my back, and have friction do the work for me. relax, have my partner finger me first, kiss my lips gently, tease my ass hole with the head, spoil my nipples, and then…

you can’t find big dicks everywhere and you can only get lucky seldom. i have this feeling that a big dicked guy can not maintain a relationship because he is always in demand and if he got it, he may as well use it. thus i am not into anything L and above.

from my own personal experience i can not confidently say that bigger is always better.

i had a 50 yo with a thick 19 cm (i figured) dick that would not keep it up. i had a perhaps 23 cm dick that i could not enjoy in the dark on a meeting room table. i had a 20 yo x 20 cm dick in his bathroom that i did not want to discourage. i had a man with something of a thick  17-18 cm that gave me an orgasm just by holding me in his arms. i had a rather average 16 cm one with a magic mouth attached to it and some moved that made me scream for the first time, ever, in the act. i had, twice, a 13 cm very determined top (size shy top) that made me feel nothing but i love because of his attitude, stamina and kind approach.

i can say i sampled the whole spectrum, that is not to mention the dildos. i can say, in whole truthfulness and honesty, that dick size, to me, at least, is not the whole thing. but, as so happens in life, you can not have them all. or, as in my case, buy a dildo, and circumvent the whole date / pretension / condom / doubt / dissatisfaction thing. as the saying goes, if you want something done, do it yourself. or buy in bulk. with cold cash. there are lots of guys whose only asset is a big dick. though a dildo is cheaper. and safer.

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sex in trei

citeam asta. sunt putin stresat in seara asta si am cautat sa citesc ceva despre subiect: sex in trei. tocmai am constatat ca nu am pe nimeni cu care sa discut chestiile astea. prin urmare iar sunt singur in fata necunoscutului, ca primul gay care a existat vreodata. descopar singur roata. cel mai probabil acest post ca avea unul sau mai multe edituri. deocamdata stiu pe unul din ei, celalalt e o necunoscuta. si se intampla si foarte tarziu, adica la ora 10 seara.

[EDIT 1] nu a fost cine stie ce. as fi preferat sa fiu numai cu amantul meu din nord-vest dar nu s-a putut. experienta a fost neconcludenta.

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my take on bisexuals

i just had sex with my second self identified bisexual. sure he has a 7.5 in dick and he was everything i like in a fuck buddy. but he has no bedside manners. i did not feel a thing, he did not care about me and basically made me not want him in the end. he even push himself so hard over me that i pulled a muscle in the back of my left thigh.

and when i think i was so nervous all day about this and wanted so much to meet him only to be so disappointed.

now is the time to remember my first bisexual. he was extremely self-confident, did not suck my dick and just sat there in bed waiting for me to suck him and the insert myself unto his dick. well, at least the second one had a thicker implement.

thus, my conclusion: bisexual men do not give a shit about the men they fuck.  wonder if they treat the women the same way. hmm…

[LATER EDIT] i almost forgot the 20 x 20 bi that asked me not to call / text his mobile because of the nosy girlfriend. perhaps i was more indulgent with him due to his age given inexperience and also his huge dick 😛

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raspuns la mesaj FB de la X

sti, tocmai am descoperit ca eu de fapt mimez gandirea. si ma stradui sa accept sa sunt inteligent desi nu sunt inca convins de asta, cu toate testele de inteligenta pe care le-am facut in ultima vreme la ordinul psihologului meu. prin urmare nu sunt prieten cu gandirea. cred ca e doar o impresie ca sunt mai chill, mai mult pentru ca am decis sa te las in pace. ca dovada, iti raspund pe blog, unde nu citesti. de fapt imi raspund mine…

[edit 1] interesanta comparatie, numai ca nu se aplica si in cazul meu pentru ca, pe langa diferenta de varsta biologica, eu am, se pare, tot ce imi trebuie sa ca functionez normal doar ca nu o fac. apoi, vezi tu, ideea e sa interactionez in mod firesc nu deloc. si asta inseamna si sa nu prea interactionez cu cineva care nu isi doreste asta. mi-a luat ceva timp si a necesitat putin ajutor ca sa ma prind de asta.

[edit 2] am sa iti spun ca prietenia mea si dragostea mea pentru tine sunt definitive chiar daca eu nu sunt. si pot sa ma bucur de aceea ce imi oferi si sa te apreciez si fara ca sa existe reciprocitate. depinde de tine, si nu de mine, daca asta se poate schimba, adica daca imi vei oferi motive sa te admir sau motive sa te detest.

[edit 3] nu ma pot abtine: ce inteleg din ce imi spui e ca dragostea si prietenia ta depind de nevoile tale de afectiune si acceptare pentru ca tu nu te apreciezi si nu te iubesti pe tine si te dai oricui iti poate oferii mai mult. eu nu am ce sa iti ofer mai mult decat pe mine.

[edit 4] azi ai trecut cu masina prin fata mea. si cineva a citit postul asta si asa l-am recitit si eu si mi-am amintit de tine. mi-a trecut. esti atat de departe de mine acum. si am vrut sa scriu asta aici ca sa nu uit.

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two weeks

long story short: i meet people and i can not seem to keep them in my life for more than two weeks on average. since all just disappear without a word, i could only figure out that it is a problem with me. and i am told i do stuff in purpose to drive them away.

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just my luck

“No matter what your past has been, you have a spotless future.”

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unknown romeo

Acum un an:

[EU]

salut! vreau sa te cunosc.

[EL]

salut

[EU]

putem sa vorbim pe yahoo messenger. am acelasi id ca aici.

[EL]

ei, din pacate eu nu sunt utilizator de mess

[EU]

07** *** *** D*****l

[EL]

d*****l, ce nume frumos.

ce ti-ai dori, sau ce astepti de la mine?

[EU]

sexdate, sex, precum scrie la tine in profil. doar ca e o problema: nu am loc. in rest, depinde si de tine daca e mai mult decat sex.

[EL]

d*****l, d*****l, ne cunoastem

am facut sex

sunt Jonny

[EU]

imi este rusine dar nu imi amintesc. cand? trebuie sa-mi dai detalii.

[EU]

cand a fost? unde? cine esti tu?

In seara asta:

[EU]

salut! ai loc?

[EL]

salut D*****l

da, am loc, dar de ce ma intrebi cand stii adresa

[EU]

ti-am mai spus ca nu stiu cine esti.

[EL]

da, ai spus

eu ce sa fac?

[EU]

sa-mi spui cine esti. nu am avut prea multi barbati in scurta mea viata
sexuala insa descrierea ta de aici si idul nu seama nu nimic din ce stiu
eu. ajuta-ma macar cu niste indicii.

i think i wasted enough time and humiliated myself enough for somebody who pretends that he had sex with me when in fact did not. thus…

the end.

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the worst time to fall in love

The worst time to fall in love

The worst time to fall in love

Valentine’s Day 2010: maybe too critical, lapse emotionally and too weak to perform, e.i. the worst time to fall in love. I will be staying home by myself.

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a romeo

citez:
“Sunt gay pentru ca mi plac barbatii!

Caut un tip:

1. atragator fizic: asta pentru mine inseamna la modul ideal – inalt, slab si definit, insa nu e o generalitate… o generalitate este faptul ca nu ma atrag barbatii grasi

2. sexual: asta pentru mine inseamna – dispus sa-si dea frau liber imaginatiei si sa-si accepte fanteziile… dispus sa o faca oricand, oriunde, oricum. Asta neinsemnand ca vreau sa ma fut cu oricine.

3. inteligent: asta insemnad simplu, sa-l ajute mintea.

4. cult: nu strica sa fi citit ceva la viata lui, dar macar sa vorbeasca limba romana corect.

5. independent: fara sa fie in intretinere… (nu comentez mai mult)”

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