Tag Archives: alone

You knocked me off my feet

Posted on May 16, 2018 by xavier_j

I am falling. He doesn’t know. He doesn’t care. He’s just not into me. We had sex and it blew my mind. I have no idea how it was for him. We slept together. Like, we took a nap in … Continue reading →

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to clear the air

Posted on March 9, 2016 by xavier_j

on the subject of my relationships, or lack of: I never had a relationship with a man ever upto today march 9, 2016. there were three attempts and a failure to lauch that just failed today. so I actually have … Continue reading →

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Aftermath

Posted on January 17, 2015 by xavier_j

we reconnected on gayromeo. i was about to close my account when he asked me if i am still single. then he disclosed who he was and i remembered. i said i wanted to meet him. and then i f**ked … Continue reading →

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my strategy: pre-reject everyone

Posted on November 23, 2012 by xavier_j

… including me. that prevents all rejection. and the eventual looser that would like my ugly face and fat body. cause, in the the words of the great margaret chow, ‘if you like me then you are a bigger looser … Continue reading →

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conditional

Posted on September 27, 2012 by xavier_j

love is something very relative to me. Apparently my subconscious desires it. I think that being loved is a validation of oneself. So, the thinking is: do I need to be validated? I need to understand if validations of oneself … Continue reading →

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self-service sex

Posted on January 6, 2011 by xavier_j

yesterday i had sex with myself in almost 7 month. for the first time i got to appreciate it, besides enjoying it. it occurred to me that it is satisfying, it does not cost much and it is immediate. it … Continue reading →

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rejection: what to do about it

Posted on October 23, 2010 by xavier_j

nothing. suck it! move on! don’t look back.

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rejection: how it’s done

Posted on October 23, 2010 by xavier_j

i have been rejected. almost all the time. from my father who wished i was different, to my mother who wanted a girl, to the last guy that i spoke with. for me the experience was different every time. in … Continue reading →

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a date with a libra

Posted on December 6, 2009 by xavier_j

i had a date today. with a libra. it has mismatch written all over it. and i don’t like this idea. he is cute, very intelligent, good-looking and 10 years younger. i, on the other hand, am not so good … Continue reading →

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sex in trei

Posted on October 15, 2009 by xavier_j

citeam asta. sunt putin stresat in seara asta si am cautat sa citesc ceva despre subiect: sex in trei. tocmai am constatat ca nu am pe nimeni cu care sa discut chestiile astea. prin urmare iar sunt singur in fata … Continue reading →

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